I'm alone in my room,
awake when i shld not be,
nowadays everything's in a gloom,
i feel so messed up i want someone to slap me,

The computer's playing music,
and i hear it but i'm not listening,
I just can't sleep i'm not sick,
How i envy those that are sleeping,

and yet there is a sense of peace,
and a feeling of loneliness,
So many things i regret and miss,
And the memories plague me like a curse,

Some people think i'm too pessimistic,
some people think i hate everything i see,
But all i am is more realistic,
truth is i only hate one thing and that's ME,

for being an asshole when i know i shouldn't,
for doing things i should not,
And yet always telling myself it's a lesson learnt,
but i never do and i might as well just rot,

To do what i can',
and to be who i'm not,
doesn't that sound fun?
cause it's the only dream i've got...

Kai-Teoh. Teoh Jun-Kai

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Drip,
From my slit wrist,
My life.

Drip,
From my sad eyes,
My dreams.

Flow,
Gone; my life.
Shattered; my dreams.