I've decided to leave everything,
And i've packed my suitcase,
but this tender and painful feeling,
keeps reminding me of your face,

I think i need a holiday,
from this eternal longing,
Maybe later i'll be back to stay,
but for now i wanna go missing,

You have no idea how painful it is,
When i'm stuck in the middle,
When i go will i be sorely missed?
Or not even a little?

My feelings for you are just as true,
As the sun that shines and the stars that twinkle,
That is why i leave the decision to you,
While these tears of mine flow like a river,

If it is no given willingly,
There's no point I stay here,
Cause i'll just be downright silly,
But my feelings are eternal and forever... I was lying on the garden,
My dogs playing beside me,
This feeling came all of a sudden,
I felt so alone and lonely,

You don't see many stars nowadays,
Modern pollution made sure of that,
Yet the only star seems to say,
That it feels lonely and sad,

I can hear my fish pond to the right,
The fishes swimming so quietly,
It makes me wonder what she's doing tonight,
Is there a chance she's missing me?

Suddenly the moon shows it's face,
A glowing ball in the sky,
My feelings and thoughts are hazed,
And it is to her my heart fly,

A gust of wind rustles the tree,
All around me bugs start to call,
I dream of a world where she's with me,
walking together hand in hand in a mall,

I stand up and took a look around,
Feeling terribly sad and lonely,
I want to leave my heart at Lost & Found,
If only things were that easy.... The singer finishes singing and she walks out,
He feels a tear slowly falling out,
it's hard to hold the tears away,
as the night turns into day,

The pub is empty and everyone's leaving,
towards his home he is slowly driving,
lying on his bed he closes his eyes,
trying not to feel lonely and cry,

he wants to feel the warmth of her,
hopefully forever some where near,
he longs to kiss her flushed red cheek,
everyday of every week,

but she's somewhere far from him,
everynight it's her he dreams,
but he wonders how she feels,
the curiosity really kills,

but patience is a virtue he must learn,
or else his efforts would burn,
so patiently he awaits in the shadows,
helping her in whatever way he knows,

in hope that one day she'll notice,
that every song and poem of his,
is actually written specially for her,
in hope that one day they'll be together. I'm such a stupid dumb pathetic shit,
won't even know i'm on a one way street,
racing on the road so happily,
there's nothing on the other side can't u see?

Just in case you're wondering,
natelline's gonna be another "has been",
i feel so darn horrible and sad,
feel like crying till i go mad,

stupid dumb pathetic idiotic asshole,
go home gonna listen to The Eminem Show,
gonna scream my lungs out,
till i'm hoarse and i can't shout. I walked into a room and i saw him,
a person emitting an aura that'll make u scream,
he sits in a corner in a dark gloom,
doesn't even acknowledge my presence in the room,

Slowly and cautiously i walked forward,
At that moment i seriously acted like a coward,
but his sudden voice stopped me cold,
and the words hesaid swirled up in the dark emblazoned in gold,

Nothing lasts forever,
remember this advice from a stranger,
and eternity only awaits those,
that has been pricked by the thorn of a rose,

It made no sense to me at all,
and i started to run out the door,
but i stopped and turned around at the end,
and saw the true face.... of Ben....

*wrote this for fun, but at the same time to remind myself, nothing lasts forever, but still eternity will await those, that has been pricked by the rose, which means, people that get hurt, can actually reach eternity, but the eternity i speak of is of the mental word, eternal bliss, for wisdom comes only through painful experiences. understand it? The reason in the end it was the true face of Ben is because it's my advice to myself, and the words emblazoned in gold yet in a gloomy room, for life is a dark and unfair experience, and gold is something precious, something to be remembered, appreciated, the words in gold because i believe this is important. I also said, a person emitting an aura that makes you wanna scream, that makes you think of a scary person right? But look, in the end, he gave GOOD advice, painful advice, but GOOD and True. Appearances can be misleading.And i said up there, walked slowly and cautiously, acting like a coward, because sometimes people play things too safely, including me, and most of the time, people are willing to close their eyes against the truth, Truth Hurts.

Nothing Lasts Forever,
The Advice From A Stranger,
Eternity only awaits Those,
Pricked By A Rose....

A truth, that hurts. it was my birthday,
so should i say hooray?
cause like all the past years,
i'm alone in my room close to tears,

at least this time i recieved some messages,
from some friends and this is a first,
but still i feel something's missing inside,
cause in the end i still feel lonely i almost cried,

there's a longing deep inside me,
and it is a feeling that won't set me free,
until i fulfill it's wishes,
and quench it's thirst,

i believe it's a longing for company,
and i don't care if that person's unstable or funny,
as long as it can take away this emptiness,
this horrible curse,

so someone or something please save me,
and from this feeling set me free,
i don't wanna cry on the day i was born,
i don't wanna be stuck in a storm... I'm alone in my room,
awake when i shld not be,
nowadays everything's in a gloom,
i feel so messed up i want someone to slap me,

The computer's playing music,
and i hear it but i'm not listening,
I just can't sleep i'm not sick,
How i envy those that are sleeping,

and yet there is a sense of peace,
and a feeling of loneliness,
So many things i regret and miss,
And the memories plague me like a curse,

Some people think i'm too pessimistic,
some people think i hate everything i see,
But all i am is more realistic,
truth is i only hate one thing and that's ME,

for being an asshole when i know i shouldn't,
for doing things i should not,
And yet always telling myself it's a lesson learnt,
but i never do and i might as well just rot,

To do what i can',
and to be who i'm not,
doesn't that sound fun?
cause it's the only dream i've got... *originally wrote this on friendster bulleting board when i was bored*

i'm sutck in this office bored like mad,
in fact so bored i wanted to take a nap,
but right on cue my phone woke me up,
wif a message from someone saying CHEER UP!

straight away i smile and i'm wide awake,
cause it came from a person that made my heart ache,
and even until now i'm smilling away,
such a simple 5 cent message made my day,

i'm writing this down now cause i'm happy and bored,
and never did this come to my thought,
that such a simple action by someone,
can make everything suddenly seem fun....

~Kai~ In the distance i hear piano playing,
and a sweet voice slowly singing,
about eternity being too short a time,
when both their hands are entwined,

The distant music slowly rings clearer,
and a tone of sadness is within her,
for nothing ever lasts forever,
said a message from a stranger.

Slowly the music starts to fade,
And she sings the sorrow that was made,
for the stranger's message was true,
nothing will forever be with you...

* Just felt like writing this. * As i walked i was shaking,
Thinking of a pretty girl i'll be meeting,
And when i reached i was stunned,
She was sizzling hot seriously no "pun",


Within seconds my heart dropped,
And i can bloody swear it almost stopped,
As a million thoughts ran through my head,
Making me dizzy as hell, i need a bed!

Do i look ok and do i stand a chance,
I kept on thinking at every secret glance,
What am i gonna say we're too quiet,
Bloody heck i suddenly feel so weird,

Cause i just wanna sit beside her & be with her,
but she's like a suddenly found treasure,
you're so shocked and happy you just gape,
but sooner or later from you someone will take,

Please gimme another chance to show you i care,
The next time i swear to you i'll be there,
to make you smile and laugh non-stop,
or at least i'll try till i drop,

So i ask for your forgiveness,
Cause i was being so damn gutless,
and i wanna tell you i really adore you.
and just gimme a chance and i'll prove it to you....

~Kai~ Light is my death,
darkness ends my breath,
always by your side,
but always out of sight?

taken for granted,
never wanted,
and yet i stay,
throughout the day,

a lover i am not,
live and die i do not,
i am shapeless,
i never know thirst,

your eternal companion,
that watches you learn,
one day you'll know,
i am but your shadow...

~Kai~

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